The Final Countdown

Here we are. The final project. This semester has been... interesting to say the least. With this being my second to last semester in college (hopefully), the second half of 2014 was important for me. Taking this class was exactly what I needed.

For my final "Altered Self" book project, I converted my math textbook into a sketch book. Since I did not actually have an old math textbook and did not want to spend a couple hundred on a new one, I used a copy of the Great Gatsby, another book I am not too fond of. Drawing over the pages was a great relief for me. Doodling/sketching was something that I used to do constantly in high school and was almost always reprimanded and told that it was an unproductive waste of time. This project is essentially my revenge to all those who told me I was wasting my time.

Since I am in the middle of trying to graduate, most of my classes are fairly high level and very project intensive. This class, and by extension my altered book, helped to serve as a sort of healing time for me. Whenever I was feeling overwhelmed over the course of the semester, I would just open my book and begin drawing. Most of my drawings in the book are closer to doodles since I wasn't trying too hard and just wanted to clear my head, but they have the same amount of importance to me.

During the course of Seeing Sideways we were tasked with keeping a journal of sorts in the form of class takeaways. The due date for the takeaways was always the next day at 11:59pm. Now you would think that with a consistent due date I would have no trouble turning in the assignment. Wrong. I encountered the same problem that I had when taking my online writing course: out of sight, out of mind. Once I leave the class room my mind, for the most part, checks out of Seeing Sideways and I go back to focusing on the projects that "matter" or the projects that will hopefully. get me a job. For the first 4 weeks of Seeing Sideways I missed every class takeaway. It was at this point that I decided to do something productive and stop them from being a negative influence in my life. I then did something radical.

I told my self I was not going to do a single class takeaway.

The burden was lifted but not fully. I was still terrified of getting a failing grade for pulling this little stunt and if I got a failing grade that means that I would not get the credit and if I didn't get the credit then I would not graduate and if I didn't graduate... well I saw my self as a failure. I decided to speak with Beth about my little idea just so I would feel secure in my idea. After speaking with her I was a little surprised that see was on board. She seemed all for something that would help me instead of hinder me.

Shocked, and with the burden now completely lifted, I began to work on my version of the class takeaways. After each class or sometimes during class, I would write a sentence or 2 about the class and the surround it in doodles. The process served as a time to heal and empty my mind. After working on the first one I decided re make it and start doing my "takeaways" inside my altered book! What was created turned out fantastic as my entire Seeing Sideways journey is represented in my altered book now. I did the doodles and writing in sharpie so it's as if my entire book bleeds together to form a cohesive experience.

I have included a few screenshots from my book below.